Life is a written piece of music. Think Vivaldi’s Four Season. It comprises of all the ups and downs, lefts and rights of life. Well, this is the story of my life, or at least part of it. God is the composer and I am the score sheet. Everything that has happened is notes written on me to prepare me to be the masterpiece.
It was 10 years ago, when I was 14 or so, I started to have dreams of working in entertainment. My mom dismissed it as wishful thinking and went on to lecture me about the dark side of the industry-as if I did not know. I thought that it was way above my head too. But I wanted to do it so badly that I almost hated myself for belittling myself. See the contradiction? Finally, after much self persuasion I managed to talk myself out of it.
Nevertheless, unknown to me at that time, this dream sunk deep into me. I was reminded of it whenever I see a good piece of work. I remember praying and submitting it to God every time my dream surface. But I had to admit, I was not consistent in prayer and I was not really submitting. Even though I told him that I will give him my life but I still held tight to the shift stick. At times, I have driven like a mad driver in a Ferrari. In fact, as events unfold, God has shown me that the life that I thought was always in my control was crafted and written by His hand.
God is faithful when I am not. Despite dismissing my dreams again and again, God remembered my prayer. The music piece that was my life unfolded in a way that was too much coincidence for me to dismiss it as luck. If it happens once, it is luck; Twice, coincidence; Thrice, it takes a fool to not know that He wants to tell you something. I have to admit, I am a fool. It took more than three times for me to finally realize. A friend once said that he asked God to hint until he gets it. That is pretty much my case.
It all began when the movie "Red Cliff" was aired. Being the Three Kingdom fan that I was, I rushed to watch this epic remake. Before that I had heard stories about John Woo’s use of Christian symbolism in the movie. Despite all the funny moments in the movie, that movie was the watershed for me. It dawned upon me that media was the most powerful platform to share God’s word! I know I have been preaching this to that little Stefanie inside my heart to justify my passion for entertainment. But never have I believed it with such a conviction. And there I was sitting in front of my computer, staring straight at the end credits. There’s this feeling inside that I can’t resist. This burst of emotion, sensation, passion, vibration, conviction, and whatever passion related verb you can think of. Words crept into my mind and I shouted: Why can’t I be John Woo?!
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